Fears. We all have them.
Some people identify by their fears while others let fear control their lives and let it disable them.
Me? I'm too stubborn for that. Maybe a bit too stubborn.
I've taught myself and made a rule of it, that if I find myself afraid of something, I need to force myself to get over it.
I used to be scared of roaches and spiders until I forced myself to pick them up and remove them from the premises without harming them.
Scared of heights? Ride roller-coasters and other rides with my hands up in the air and I'm not allowed to put them back down.
Maybe scared of the unknown underwater open sea? How about jumping off a pier into the sea about 30 feat away from the beach and swim/float my way back to shore.
I always put myself in such situations and force myself to overcome my fears however everyone HAS TO have something they're afraid of and after all I am human so I MUST have something I'm scared of, right?
It's been bothering me actually.. The fact that I'm not scared.
So, what I've been doing is trying to figure out what actually truly scares the pants off of me and terrifies me to bits.
Along the way I've also started looking into my dreams/nightmares.
You see, I have such weird and freaky nightmares and I've had them all my life since I can remember (maybe I'll tell you guys all about them some day) and well, I've been wondering what they mean. What sort of hidden message am I subconsciously sending to myself?
Reading into it plus observing myself carefully and taking note on things that bother me or ruffle my feathers so to speak and even things that freak me out and then I look into why I felt the way I did.
So, from all that I've come to the conclusion that I'm afraid of being powerless.
Completely and absolutely powerless.
The thought of going to the hospital and being sedated for whatever reason scares the crap out of me.
The thought of being in an emergency situation and not being able to do anything about it is absolutely horrifying.
I imagine myself as the character from the movie "Awake" and it's an absolute nightmare.
What brings all this to mind is cause I just finished reading an article about a woman that was rushed by her husband to the ER because of severe pain in her abdomen and all the doctors and nurses dismissed her pain and assumed she had kidney stones. She was powerless.
The article is about a different topic and is actually a serious issue which I think needs to be acknowledged and addressed.
So, here is the link to the article:
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2015/10/emergency-room-wait-times-sexism/410515/?utm_source=atlfb
I think, I'll just end this post here. That's about all I have to say for now so... bye.
Some people identify by their fears while others let fear control their lives and let it disable them.
Me? I'm too stubborn for that. Maybe a bit too stubborn.
I've taught myself and made a rule of it, that if I find myself afraid of something, I need to force myself to get over it.
I used to be scared of roaches and spiders until I forced myself to pick them up and remove them from the premises without harming them.
Scared of heights? Ride roller-coasters and other rides with my hands up in the air and I'm not allowed to put them back down.
Maybe scared of the unknown underwater open sea? How about jumping off a pier into the sea about 30 feat away from the beach and swim/float my way back to shore.
I always put myself in such situations and force myself to overcome my fears however everyone HAS TO have something they're afraid of and after all I am human so I MUST have something I'm scared of, right?
It's been bothering me actually.. The fact that I'm not scared.
So, what I've been doing is trying to figure out what actually truly scares the pants off of me and terrifies me to bits.
Along the way I've also started looking into my dreams/nightmares.
You see, I have such weird and freaky nightmares and I've had them all my life since I can remember (maybe I'll tell you guys all about them some day) and well, I've been wondering what they mean. What sort of hidden message am I subconsciously sending to myself?
Reading into it plus observing myself carefully and taking note on things that bother me or ruffle my feathers so to speak and even things that freak me out and then I look into why I felt the way I did.
So, from all that I've come to the conclusion that I'm afraid of being powerless.
Completely and absolutely powerless.
The thought of going to the hospital and being sedated for whatever reason scares the crap out of me.
The thought of being in an emergency situation and not being able to do anything about it is absolutely horrifying.
I imagine myself as the character from the movie "Awake" and it's an absolute nightmare.
What brings all this to mind is cause I just finished reading an article about a woman that was rushed by her husband to the ER because of severe pain in her abdomen and all the doctors and nurses dismissed her pain and assumed she had kidney stones. She was powerless.
The article is about a different topic and is actually a serious issue which I think needs to be acknowledged and addressed.
So, here is the link to the article:
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2015/10/emergency-room-wait-times-sexism/410515/?utm_source=atlfb
I think, I'll just end this post here. That's about all I have to say for now so... bye.
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